A bright and shining Day Just Like that!!

How beautiful is the day bright and shining.

Look at sun up in the sky winking and smiling.

Busy in the business people around

running and mining for the daily round.

Who gets to see the nature at it's best.

birds are flocking and chirping aloud.

When the sunlight comes and conquer the rest.

Diplomatic Duniya

Kyun sach ka sabak sikhaye
Jab sach sun bhi na paye
Sach koi bole toh tu
Niyam kanoon bataye

These lines from a famous hindi movie song, make me feel like so connected to it. People call me assertive and direct. I say on the face what i don't like.May be that's not the way it should be in this diplomatic world, but that's me. Over last few months am seeing such diplomatic people around me who wants to be safe. They would  choose not to say directly what bothers them or what makes them happy.

My biggest problem, if I don't like anything I will say that on the face may be politely or sometimes direct. I know that hurts the other person but no matter which ever way I choose they will be hurt. Who wants to take the feedback? No one.

I have lost friends because of thist but am happy that those who are with me now. friends & relatives, are the ones who understand this. those who don't are free to stay away.

My mood fluctuations

Right from the childhood I used to be the one  who always wanted to be famous, successful,happy and cheerful.
No it's not that am not  a cheerful person  now but that's how I always wanted be. Had lots of friends, so many that my day started with them ended up being with them.

I have now realized that I have very few of them left now. Who is blame, our hectic lifestyle,my dependencies,  or my other responsibilities. I have started behaving very irrationally these days. Who is to blame?

It is completely me and no one else.  

So from hereon I take pledge to be with my friends and make as many as I can.  Let's how much I succedd.

CYA

Who is the Eye of my eye?

By whose touch does the lily smile
And open its beauty – bud?
Whose moonlit beauty
Do I see in the lily?
Who is the Eye of my eye;
Who is the Heart of my heart?
Alas, then why do I not see Him,
His face of transcendental Beauty,
Even in my dreams?

I will for sure

...NO whatever it is India is the best. I often land up in ending these conversations in the similar manner. May be because am far away from my country rite now and I miss eveything of India..or is this is like that saying which goes like"you can take an Indian out of India but cannot take India out of an Indian". I get in to a really strong defensive mode when people talk about US or UK being better then India.

Yes I do agree thet they are far better then us....security, developed economy and good legal system ,I don't deny all that. Very recently I had a very heated conversation with two of my husband's friend over the same topic...for me they are like the all time "US bhaqt" I assume that they don't want to go back to their country and they don't love their family.
I feel proud in saying that I don't enjoy being here and one day I will be going back to India.
I am of a belief that I cannot blame anyone when I know that I am also responsible for such state of India..someone has to take the responsibility and yes I am all willing to do that..really I would for sure do something so that I can say "yes I have contributed " don't know how? and when? but I will.

कोई दोस्त है न रकीब है

कोई दोस्त है न रकीब है
तेरा शहर कितना अजीब है
वो जो इश्क था वो जुनून था
ये जो हिज्र है ये नसीब है
यहाँ किसका चेहरा पढा करूं
यहाँ कौन इतना करीब है

मैं किसे कहूँ मेरे साथ चल
यहाँ सब के सर पे सलीब है

kudrat ka har rang chura kar ek tasveer banoongi

Jo beet gaya woh purana tha
aane wala saal aur khoobsoorat banoongi
kudrat ka har rang chura kar ek tasveer banoongi

kuch yaadein hai beete saal ki kuch khatti kuch meethi
choda tha desh apna chodi thi woh sondhi apni meetti
aane wale saal mein hongi kuch khwaish puri
rahne na doongi koi tamanna adhuri

tarsi hui ankhon ko phir apne dikhenge
jinse bichde the saal bhar pehle woh apne ab saath milenge
ek khawab sa jo dekha hai use haqeeqat banaoongi
kudrat ka har rang chura kar ek tasveer banoongi